A lovely weekend with friends and family and more beautiful flowers.
Last Thursday I went to the hospital to complete my care plan with my breast care nurse. The purpose of the plan is to check in on physical and emotional well being, and offer the appropriate support. Consequently, I have a referral for a physical trainer who specialises in cancer patients (I am really concerned about losing fitness), and I learned about Cancerkin at the Royal Free, which offers lots of classes, therapies and support groups. Just what I was looking for.
The care plan questionnaire asks about your emotional well being. As I ranked all my emotions on a scale of 1 to 10, it struck me that I haven’t felt angry or sad or asked why me? My main emotions through all this have been fear of the unknown and anxiety. The waiting for results is without doubt the worst time.
Tomorrow I get my pathology results and treatment plan. An important step. Another milestone. Of course I’m concerned, but nothing like I was before Diagnosis Day.
And I repeat my mantra: I did not choose to have cancer, but I can choose how I deal with it.